I can see that many people have misconstrued this situation completely. They believed what I told the citizens. They have taken what I said in public to be the complete truth. They do not understand.

Despite what you might think, I didn't have many choices. Ask Judas how many times he had been shot at over the years. Or how many times people had tried to kill him. I know most of those orders came from the Master or the Ministry, so I did what I could to make him safe. I did what I did to protect Judas.

Because if I disappointed him or upset him, who do you think would be the first one to die? And people don't come back.

Now, I will not pretend that I hated being there. I did not. I did enjoy it and yes, I did enjoy the Arena sometimes. I did enjoy the power it gave me.

But please, for God's sake or any other sake you wish, do not use Judas against me. Do you know how many times I almost lost him? It was Judas who kept me from become a monster, Marquis. He kept me from turning into the man everyone thought I was.

Three years I have loved him, yes. But only a fool would think that I don't need him now, in this terrible time. Only a fool would think that I could tolerate being separated from him now, when I need him the most.