The fundamental difference between you and I, Monsieur Iscariot, is that, as your Warden has said, you are more consistently in this situation. I have lost control during extenuating circumstances, and I have been corrected. You, however, find yourself in this situation enough that I would personally be exhausted if it were me. And in my lifetime before coming here, I promise you, I was very similar at times, sometimes to greater extremes given my age. And I promise you that once I came here and learned to control it, I felt a good deal less miserable and more in control.