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Thank you for the use of your room during the flood, Henry, and I apologize for leaving it so late. It is yours again, however.

Doctor Jackson, and to all others that have contributed, thank you for the reading recommendations.

And now that all those pithy formalities have been taken care of, I wish to put the question to anyone who wants to give it some serious thought beyond "The Admiral enjoys making us suffer" because this can already be assumed:

What purpose does having our personalities forcibly changed serve?

And is this not the intention from the start? Why does the Admiral not simply make us the way he thinks we should be, if the whole point of this experience is to change us?

(ooc: once the flood wore off, the Marquis came back to himself and promptly realized he was sleeping in a bed that smelled like West. It got him a bit agitated. So there's now some long, flowery, pissed off letter written on West's bedsheets -- likely to be posted later -- the details of it, at least)

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My ability to speak frankly about them without fear of having my manhood questioned is not flaunting.

Yes, it is. You revel in their reactions. I'm... secure in who I am.

The only time you are ever secure in who you are is after you've emptied a bottle or two.

That isn't true.

I can count on one hand the number of times I've gone to bed with you without your touching a drink first.

~~Well, I didn't need any alcohol with Jack!~~

It's normal for a person to drink beforehand.

When they're nervous or afraid?

Yes.

My point precisely.

To relax after a stressful day!

Do you tell yourself that bedtime story often, Henry?

You drink wine most frequently. How is that any different?

I drink wine with a meal and on occasion alone, but I'm an old man with circulatory problems. What is your excuse?

I've had the good sense to have only gotten drunk once since coming here.

It feels good. And I'm young enough to do it more frequently without any complications, that's why.

I haven't gotten intoxicated or even had much to drink in quite a while.

Edited 2009-02-16 20:27 (UTC)

I'm sure.

Don't give me that condescending response! Why is everything you do excusable, but none of my actions are?

This is not about my actions being excusable or not. When someone thinks they are not, people generally tell me.

You just do not wish to hear it when someone comes to you about yours.

You didn't come to me about mine! You left an angry letter on my sheets because I didn't formally tell you I wouldn't be shagging you anymore!

I never said the method had to be conventional.

Fine! Then I'll lay it out to you now:

You were possessive and you alienated me from my friends by antagonising them, and then you displayed no sensitivity to my situation at all after that particular flood, and instead expected me bend over for you in the library because of a silly bet.

And when it became clear to you that I wouldn't reciprocate certain behaviour from then on, you seemed to lose all interest in associating with me.

I never, EVER asked you to to own up to that bet after what happened!

I kept my distance because I did not want you to be afraid, and I didn't want you to look at me and connect me with what happened to you!

As for my being possessive -- I never stopped you from seeing anyone. Nor made a scene. I might have been afraid I would be forgotten or eventually cast aside -- and I was right.

And furthermore, I was in NO way obligated to be kind to that pack of breying asses you call friends or treat them differently from how I would anyone else, and fuck you for even insinuating that I should have!

I am not like you. I do not hide what I am, and before you would have defended me, and did. Only cowards would stand up for a supposed friend and then accuse them of causing their alienation!

And that's precisely what you are.

You WOULD try to! When I first started spending more time with Billy, you did try to stall my meetings with him. I didn't forget you at all-- I thought you were uninterested after I ended that aspect of our friendship.

And there's a difference between being kind, and not provoking people!

I'm not a coward.

You reassured me, and I stopped. Idiot that I was, I believed you. I stayed away for your benefit, and if this conversation has proven anything, it is that I was right to think you would believe I expected anything from you after what happened.

I provoked nothing; it is not my job to look after their tempers, and I am not responsible for the choices or actions of others.

And you are a coward.

Well, it was primarily what you seemed interested in.

I'm not. I would still defend you, if you needed it.

And continue to whine at me when your friends do not look at you favorably for it, no doubt!

Fine. I'm sorry. That was unfair of me.

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Private 2/2 - Then he decides not to be that petty

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