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[impure_tale]

Iago, now that you're out and about, we need to have a talk about how you're going to conduct yourself from now on.

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[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

Don't be so certain of that. You will get more from them if you listen and you consider them. If you have faults that are indicated to you, then you have a responsibility to reflect, and to accept the ones in which some truth is found. Your actions, you take responsibility for, good or bad.

You place too much concern on how others look at you and fail to realize that eyes might look on you with less disdain if you showed you were open to change.

[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

Change what, Marquis? Tell me specifically what I need to change.

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

You do not think there is something wrong with feeling random urges to kill and acting on them?

[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

It is sometimes a necessity.

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

It is never a necessity unless your own life is in danger and no other alternatives are available.

Your precious ego is not part of that.

[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

What did it matter, Marquis? Death here is not truly death, since we are all dead already.

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

Wrong. Your death is permanent if and when I decide it is. Never forget that.

You yourself have yet to experience death here, but I guarantee you that your body won't know the difference, and your mind will not, either.

strikes readable

[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

At this point, Marquis, I might just welcome death. I know that most believe I deserve it.

Nothing here makes sense

I cannot be

I miss her

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

You have no guarantees that dying permanently will end all of that, Iago. You didn't exactly plan on coming here, now did you?

For the people that give up, whatever lies beyond this place will not be better for them.

[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

I have not given up. But I feel like I am no closer now than I was at the beginning. In fact, I'm quite sure that I have gotten worse. I did not have these nightmares in the beginning.

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

I would call that a sign of improvement. Some part of your mind is obviously resisting your usual indifference.

[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

Are we heading back towards our previous conversation about feelings?

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

I wasn't aware we'd stopped having that conversation.

[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

I stopped. They became irrelevant.

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

Which is why you're having nightmares now.

You're so wrong that your entire body is rejecting your behavior. That sound mean something to you.

[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

Then fix it!

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

I can do nothing if you are not willing to cooperate.

After a few minutes...

[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

If I cooperate, will the nightmares stop? I don't want to see her anymore.

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

There is no reason why they would not.

[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

Good. Then I will, if I get to the appropriate point, stop what I am doing and tell you.

What are my other punishments?

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

As usual you are not to entertain guests in your quarters, and you are to keep me informed of your whereabouts. You will continue with custodial duty for the next two weeks -- the second added to make up for the week you missed while in level zero.

And I want you to move your schedule around and plan to take part in an exercise regimen after dinner and rehearsals.

[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

Rehearsals, still?

Fine. I would actually enjoy the last one and I have no guests I would like in my quarters. I planned on meeting Judas in the gym for some strange game I think he has made up. Might I still do that?

Also, am I allowed my privacy in regards to posts?

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

Yes, rehearsals.

You may meet with him in the gymnasium, as there are wardens assigned to that area usually. I will be stopping in to check on the two of you, however.

As for your privacy -- from other people, yes. But I will still be able to see them.

[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

Have a wonderful day, Marquis.