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[impure_tale]

I would remark with the same sourness how I did not expect the changes to last, but I for one prefer to be a little distinctive. Most are I suppose already aware of how vocal our current "Admiral" has become, and I do not bother to filter this message because I have every reason to believe he'll hear me no matter what I say.

If it's even a man. I will tell you that I do not think it is the Admiral.

Lucius, I will tell you and everyone else to stay off the main deck for now. It's becoming much too dangerous to traverse.

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[amourpropre]

No.

That he announced he had killed her once in the past moved me to keep it a brief encounter. You've interesting enemies.

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

My thanks for that.

There were some Inmates conspiring to form a riot. Word got around. I made a flippant remark that the last did not work. He broke into my room, killed her, and -- well, I did not fare much better.

You have read my file; you are aware at least somewhat that I am not a man given to foolish optimism. Knowing that, there is meaning in that sometimes I think he has changed some since then. I think he wishes to tell me he regrets what he has done, though I don't imagine he ever will.

[amourpropre]

I believe your efforts as a warden speak to a kind of foolish optimism, file or not, but I'm hardly surprising you there, now am I.

But rest assured I see no worth in riots.

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

Your Lord back home certainly would, you realize.

[amourpropre]

Allow me to correct myself.

I see no worth in fruitless endeavors.

[Private] - He's into book four, now :| So...

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

The prison that you came from. Having experienced it -- having grown up in a society that condones it, as a punishment for criminals -- what are your feelings on it?

Is it effective? Is it right?

[Private] how's he taking the writing quality

[amourpropre]

[ Reply is more delayed than before, but forthcoming. ]

It is what it is, Marquis. A filthy cage to keep the unwanted out of sight and out of mind. I would call it effective.

[Private] He thinks it's an easy read, at least.

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

You among the unwanted?

[Private]

[amourpropre]

By the spineless Ministry of Magic, most certainly. I'm not heart broken.

[Private]

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

Lucius, you broke into the Ministry with other Death Eaters with the intent to steal from it. You were involved with a group that attempted to murder a group of children, that in the past had condoned murder, torture, and other terrible things. More importantly, during that escapade, someone did die, if I'm not mistaken.

Are you saying you were wrongfully imprisoned?

[Private]

[amourpropre]

I'm not a fool, Marquis. I know damn well I broke laws. And gave their press a veritable field day in the process.

But that is the nature of war.

[Private]

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

Lucius, did you even want for Voldemort to return?

[Private]

[amourpropre]

Of course.

[ HOW COULD YOU IMPLY OTHERWISE ]

[Private]

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

You fled at the sight of the Dark Mark. He seemed especially interested to hear you grovel about your loyalties when he rose in the Graveyard.

[Private]

[amourpropre]

It is simply ridiculous you have access to any of this information, I shall state plainly. Particularly due to the fact you could never understand it.

In his presence, you'd only wish yourself capable of groveling.

[Private]

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

The fact that you would dress this up as a characteristic you should revere is something you find healthy, is it?

[Private]

[amourpropre]

Power, Marquis. I revere power. As only wizards can understand it.

You're something of a conversationalist, you know. Severus isn't wrong in this regard. Does it not pain you, such tedious exchanges?

[Private]

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

The greatest power he has is that he exercises over his own followers. Grown men and women of seemingly noble birth kissing his feet and the hems of his robes like a messiah just before he batters them down.

And you enjoy that?

[Private]

[amourpropre]

Continual derision was not something I tolerated at home, nor in Azkaban, and certainly not here.

A word of advice only.

[Private]

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

I asked you a question, Lucius. In all seriousness.

[Private]

[amourpropre]

I see no reason to humour it with answer.

[Private]

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

Because I am not calling myself your Master. Because I am not going to harm you or anyone if you're honest and I don't happen to like the answer.

[Private]

[amourpropre]

You hold my freedom for ransom and raise questions like hoops through which to jump. Do I enjoy subservience? For goodness sake, it is no question of enjoyment.

We are finished here, yet again. My sincerest apologies that you were given this task, Marquis, but truly, I owe you not a thing.

[Private]

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

If you do not enjoy it, then why do you do it?

You claim I do not understand. Make me understand.

Make me understand how you can bow and scrape and cowtow to a man, how you could risk your life and freedom and soul and family for that man, when he would never deign to do the same for you.

[Private]

[amourpropre]

Vast gain.

Obviously.

The Dark Lord is no mere man, but a force of change - he gave himself to his own power a long time ago. When he succeeds, myself and my family must position ourselves well, and so I must risk myself. I must bow to him. I can no more remove my mark than I can walk out of the Barge.